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DARK DAYS
I'm feeling the lack of light these days; after nearly 16 years here perhaps I shouldn't rule out the very real possibility of seasonal affective disorder, though I still manage to peel myself out of bed each morning when the alarm rings. Even with the clock bumped back an hour recently, the constant cloud cover means that it's dark in the morning when I rise and dark already in the early evening when I leave the office. I'm not depressed, just a bit down.

Today when I drove home from work, after picking up Martin at school, we took the back road down the hill, through Ödarslöv. When we crested the hill and started our descent, it was like plunging underwater as the fog rose up to meet us halfway. It was wreathed about the ground in slinky white cotton batting, a translucent veil over the fields. There was no fog on the roads, it ended abruptly at the edge of the fields, though it continued out over the ground as far as we could see. Bare-branched trees stuck up out of it like skeleton hands near the river.

A young girl in our village died Tuesday night, after a horse-riding accident. She was in Martin's old Flyinge school class. He wasn't close to her but we've known them since he started daycare when he was 2 years old. She was in his class all through elementary school until the middle of his sixth grade year when he switched schools. She was 15 years old, a beautiful long-limbed girl with a swinging ponytail of thick blond hair. I can't stop thinking about it: I'm just devastated for her family, her mother, her friends.

She was riding her horse, and jumping, which she did competitively...she's been riding since she was really small; she knew what she was doing, in other words. They went over a small jump and the horse stumbled and fell, on top of her head and upper torso. She had on a helmet and a safety vest, but they couldn't protect her against 450 kilos of horse on her. She was rushed by ambulance to the hospital but she died 6 hours later despite all the attempts to save her. Her mom was there when it happened and saw the whole thing. She tried to get the horse off her daughter, but couldn't move it; though it sounds like it was already too late. So unbelievable: horrifying and tragic don't even begin to describe it. If it's dark for me, imagine how it must feel for those she left behind.

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Karin is in the bathroom singing while she depilates her legs. When I came in to kiss her goodnight 2 evenings ago, she confessed that she was ashamed about her hairy legs; she is the last girl in her seventh grade class that hasn't started shaving (or otherwise removing hair from) her legs. Really, I think 13 is a little young for this, but at the same time, I know times have changed and something so easily solved isn't something she should have to be embarrassed about in front of her friends. I told her what her options were, and she opted for trying Veet cream. So far, from the sound of the singing, she seems to be satisfied with the results.

They're growing up so fast. This is just the beginning; in fact it's probably halfway into the process. No makeup until she's at least 15, though...and she claims to be okay with that. It hurts my heart to think that in just a few years I won't see my kids every day. I don't know how my mom does it. People tell me you can't think about it like that, but how not? Maybe I'll get used to the idea by the time it actually starts happening. And give thanks every day that it isn't permanent.
 sad
mood: sad
music: Hoobastank—A Thousand Words


Comments
(Anonymous)

Lots of hugs. And as far as Karin, I started shaving when I was 12 and was allowed to start wearing makeup at 14, so if she's happy with 15, don't push it!

-Heather

I won't, don't worry :)

(Anonymous)

If the sun gives even a peek over clouds today, take a sun break at work today! We are in the middle of the foggy times here too, but if I see one bit of sun I stop what I'm doing and go sun bathe for a little bit. (Or move my conference call into the beam, if I'm busy ;-). A big hug to you in lieu of the sun, and just think, we have only a month or so to go until the winter solstice!

hugs

julia@kolo

I can't wait for that darn solstice to get here already!

So tragic for the family of the girl :-(

About the darkness: I have one of those light panel things that I drag out every November. I can always tell a difference once I start using it. It could be a placebo effect, but who cares as long as it works?!

I think I may have to get one of those...where did you buy it? Åhlens?

I bought it years ago El giganten. I wholeheartedly recommend it!

Beautiful and moving post. Thanks for the reminder that my kids are present and healthy and I shouldn't complain so much.

I'm trying not to squash mine with constant hugs. :)

(Anonymous)
From Willow

Oh Liz, the heartbreak of that family, that mother, losing her daughter that way. After reading your post, feeling a rush of emotion, I sit here, at a loss for words. Warm hugs your way.

Re: From Willow

Thanks, sweetie. The whole thing is so unreal...I am so sad about it.

(Anonymous)

Oh I'm so sorry about the girl. What a horrible loss for the family. So young... :(

And I totally am with you on the November darkness. Ugh. Hate it with passion. Not even during daytime is it light!

Mia

mias . blogg . se

It's been really foggy here, as well, which just makes it worse. No light at all! :(

(Anonymous)

But, your description of the foggy drive home was wonderful. I can so see it and wish you had a camera with you- what a great painting that would make! Love, Lizardmom

(Anonymous)
From Megsie

I have not been here for so long, and I always regret it. So, the good news is that the Solstice is HERE. But oh, this post is so hauntingly beautiful. My heart hurts for that family who lost their daughter. How tragic. You just never know, do you? Ugh. A belated hug from me to you...

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