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I'm sad and grumpy and snappy these days. Could it be the weather? (grey. grey. rain. grey) Could it be PMS? (3 candy bars consumed in the space of as many hours last night) Could it be work? (stress, more stress, oh and there's some stress under there, you missed some)

Yesterday, Anders took the kids and went over to his friend Mats' house to practice their roast presentation for Mikael & Lene's birthday party on Saturday. I had the house to myself. Nice and quiet. I ate dinner, read more of my book, surfed the web for a bit, looked for articles for the AWC newsletter and then I went to 8:30 p.m. My brother called then and I talked to him for about an hour which helped cheer me up a bit. I was asleep by 10. Hmmmm...

My boss just scheduled a meeting with me for next week to "discuss work status, work load, working conditions, etc." I have a feeling it's going to take every ounce of self-control I have not to cry at some point because I'm getting way too emotional about this. (another clear sign that this is probably PMS). Every morning I have to drag myself out of bed to go to work. I don't want to go. I don't want to be here. Even my fun projects aren't fun. Everyone is grumpy and depressed and stressed, it's not just me.

I heard back from the company that I sent my resume to: at least 3 more weeks before they'll get back to me about setting a date to meet. sigh

I think I'll need to use Yahoo's new Soul-Search Engine and figure out what to do with myself.
mood: grumpy
music: Corr's—Runaway


Seems to be going around, so it's probably a combination PMS and whatever. I myself don't see how you keep going with the schedule you're always talking about.

:) it's not my schedule that has me down, although I'm sure it's a contributing factor to the stress sometimes. I'd rather be busy than bored!

Could it be all three? :)

I think it's the early spring blues. It's just nice enough for a few days to get your hopes up, but not quite nice enough to break out the spring/summer wardrobe.

it's definitely all three! I want to go OUT and play, I don't want to be at work!!!

the spring weather thats getting more and more betterer (bad grammar on purpose here!) will hopefully turn that frown upside down!

or else you will by being so nice :)

*makes you a lovely cup of rich cocoa with mini marshmallows and a drizzle of chocolate syrup on top*

*serves this with homemade chocolate chip cookies warm from the oven*

*puts on some soothing music that has a slightly cheerful, uplifting melody*

There. Now, try and think about a lovely summer day that you're looking forward to. Maybe it's a family picnic or an outing with the AWC... there's a slight breeze a lovely bright sky with cottony clouds. You can hear children giggling (far enough away not too interrupt), and the warmth of the sun kissing the skin on your face and arms. Lovely. Now, my dear, that's only a month or two away. :)

We all get down and out on occassion. Don't forget, you're not Wonder Woman! You're allowed your down in the dump days too. :) And relish them... wallow! Enjoy the misery... *giggle* Okay... so maybe that was the wrong approach. :) We all have days like these.

*BIG HUG* It DOES get better. Make a concise (unemotional) list of things you want to discuss in your meeting... it may change over the week or you may remember bits as you go. :) Oh! And it's a four day week this week AND next week! WOO! :)

I loves you, I do. :)

'Course you do!

I'm made of chocolate on the inside! :P

*big hug*

I send you some imaginary walls in rich wood panelling, with some beautiful big windows overlooking a sunny park with a fountain, and some tweetling birds. The windows are flung open to let in the warm air smelling of lilacs and sunshine. And your office door is closed to keep out the sound of the peons, and because the smell and the birds and the golden rays of sun are for you alone, and you don't have to share them with anyone! And on the huge, ebony desk is a plate of warm cookies and hot chocolate from purrthecat and you can relax in your huge, oh-so comfy high-backed leather reclining office chair, put your feet up, and munch away to your heart's content, and sniff the glorious air.

I loves you, too :D Mmmm...lilacs!


Sorry that you're feeling blue. Maybe it's PMS, but it could also be your body saying enough is enough. I think we all get to a saturation point, where one more negative feeling is enough to tumble down that house of cards we've been erecting about ourselves. You have an unbelievable schedule and it's no surprise that you feel exhausted and burned out. Some people could only manage ONE of the things you do and still struggle to continue. So you are a strong person.

I guess you have to look at the areas of your life where you have some kind of say and try and make changes there. The job is the obvious one. You are not happy there, so maybe a sea change is needed. Though you have to be careful that you aren't blaming the job to avoid looking at other areas of your life that are causing you pain. I don't believe that is the case - but just something to be aware of.

I think you really need to come to the Nordström Archipelago Cure weekend, where we can help you relax and you'll have access to the rejuvinating powers of Vegemite sandwiches and puppy love.

That sounds like a wonderful idea. I wonder if I can talk Anders into a road trip soon! :) It's mostly the job and PMS combined, I think. I just hate being at work these days, the atmosphere is SO negative. I am slowly working at doing something about it, but with today's climate and the acute lack of marketing jobs, it ain't easy.

Yes, I do understand that the job market sucks badly at the moment. And I guess there would be those who'd say "At least you have a job". But I do know that if work is negative, then it infiltrates the rest of your life as well. You spend a huge chunk of your time at work and it needs to be a place where you feel validated or else it seems like torture. I hope you can sort out something with your boss.

You guys are always welcome! I have a lot to discuss with Karin *evil snicker*

oh um wait, I think we're busy that weekend. Or at least, KARIN is. *runs away*

except for the Vegemite sandwiches, LOL! I just realized you snuck that in.

Having tested Vegemite when we were down there for the Eclipse last year (was it two years ago? Time goes so quickly!), I can safely say EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! :)

God would not be happy to hear such heresy! Only, we, the chosen people have access to Vegemite and the gates of paradise. There is a special extra hot place in hell reserved for those who either eat Marmite or knock Vegemite.

Yeah, it's called Miami! hahahahaha!

Pleeeeze don't make me live in Miami!

Well, based on the comments others have made, I gather there's something in the air lately... I'd blame the weather in Sweden, but it's been beautiful here and it hardly seems to matter... The low morale around the job could be a contributing factor, too... Not just another symptom, but a possible cause... I hope you're feeling better by the time the meeting rolls around.


yeah, the weather has been pretty cruddy this week, plus work just plain SUCKS. I'm not in a good mental place at all regarding work. :( Hopefully spring will really get here soon and bump me out of this a bit. Thanks for the hugs :)

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