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Work is crazy busy. I work so hard and concentrate so hard all day long, go go go that I come home completely wiped out. I am behind on everything. My house is dirty. I am tired and cranky and probably PMS'ing. I can't get caught up, and I am feeling sorry for myself and not doing a very good job of snapping out of it. Despite all my attempts to cut down, cut back, say no, my calendar seems to be more full than ever. I'm considering dropping out of choir because it's a weekly commitment. I'm already trying to drop away from the AWC and failing miserably. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me, and whining about it here isn't really what I want to be doing. I need a vacation from myself.


I was quite pleased to see, tonight, while I was watering outside, that both the cherry tree and the little lilac have survived the long, wet winter and have pointy little green buds on them. The hostas are poking their spiky little heads up out of the dirt. Everything is busy getting bushy with it.
mood: tired


I'm behind on everything too, and I'm never as busy as you are. I hope it will get calmer soon.

Oh, I totally like the idea of taking a vacation from yourself. Why do we always stretch our lives to the max? Maybe if gets less crazy at work it'll feel less crazy-making outside of it. One can always hope. Anyway, here's hoping it gets better for you.

* hugs * don't we all want to take a vacation from ourselves at times? I hope things calm down a bit, it seems you are running around like a headless chicken << Dutch expression of a busy woman.

unsolicited advice

Do try to take a few moments every day, even when you are really really busy, just for yourself. This is important. It can be very brief. Not just another thing to get time stressed about.
I used to sometimes just need to step in the other room or out on the porch long enough to take a few deep breaths and slowly drink a glass of water, less than 2 minutes, in the crazy daze of raising and homeschooling all those kids.
A hot bath can be heavenly. Or, have you scheduled that massage?
Another trick: I schedule unscheduled time when I am very busy. And I guard that hour or half a day with my life!

I do hope you get it worked out soon. Maybe you could get someone in to help with the house?
And at least much of your busy-ness is things you love [family] and things you like to do [singing, book club]

Oh, and you get to feel sorry for yourself a little every now and then, especially if you are pms'ing!!!

*hot coco & hugs*

hugs- I think with company, kids and being sick anyone would get overwhelmed but factor in your social life and YOWZA

more unsolicited advice

It literally made me cringe to read that you're thinking of dropping out of choir to loosen up your schedule. Choir is one of the things you write about with joy. Please don't give up joy things. Give up chore things.

Draw a stick figure. You. Then draw a bunch of balls around the stick figure. The things you're trying to juggle. Then decide which of those balls you WANT to keep in the air and which ones you can let plunk to the ground.

Not choir. Please, not choir.

Re: more unsolicited advice

Oh you said what I thought but was too timid to say.

Hey you! *hugs*


Don't forget the let down of Mom and John being gone and of course grief for the loss of Akela. Also it is always a big let down after they go home. But in reference to your crazy busy self...... I agree don't give up the joy. I have, although it is very hard at times, given up on some of the chore stuff. Then I go on a cleaning binge. : )

Of course I whine alot !!!!! about the state of my house, but keep telling myself it will be clean and straight some day in the future when the kids are a bit older and can help out more. Love to you from Seester.


I also feel overwhelmed right now -- the recycling is actually taking over the kitchen floor and the dropbox is about a block away! Plus, I have no kids and no real job so I can imagine that you're really stressed.

But I agree with Geena, don't quit choir! You seem to truly love that. Maybe it's just one of those crazy times that you need to ride out and things will calm down naturally. Maybe?



I know how you feel--- try to breathe through it-- could be the planets are just loaded over our heads and once they move on, things will feel lighter and better again.

Gros bisous--- bluepoppy


I completely understand the desire to want to take a vacation away from oneself...just glad you're not taking a vacation away from all of us. And just when you think about abandoning choir you get that dreamy song to sing...funny how that works, huh? :) ~Hugs, Marilyn

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