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NOODLE POST,* OF SORTS
I'm beginning to feel a bit like a weekend blogger. The will is there and the desire, but I can't seem to find enough time. I don't really want to be writing journal entry after journal entry detailing my to-do list, my crossing off of items on said to-do list, the amount of sleep I'm missing and the fact that I'm too busy to devote the time I've been accustomed to producing here. It's making me feel guilty and sad that I can't keep up these past few weeks. I'm behind on writing, on reading, and on cleaning. I hope my faithful readers will hang in there with me.**

Trying to keep all the things straight in my head that need to be dealt with each and every day is both energizing and wearing. Martin has gym class Mondays and Thursdays, Karin on Wednesdays. Karin needs an extra snack for musicplay group on Mondays, Martin needs his Wednesdays. Karin needs a lunch packed on Fridays because they go out on expeditions. They both need new shoes. Karin needs a gift for a birthday party next Saturday and the neighbors just had a baby, so I need to remember to pick up a little something for them this week. Must remind Anders to call about service for the Volvo and the Skolverket about Hemspråk (3 YEARS without an English teacher for the kids now, WTF?!) I still haven't made any progress on getting Karin's passports renewed even though it's pretty certain that there's no rush since we probably won't be able to take that trip at Thanksgiving to the States that we had been hoping for. There are 4 bills to pay, plus choir term fee. I still have to read the book for book group on Monday, but since I just got it yesterday I haven't had a chance to start it. At least I got 3 poems up for Mosaic Minds (anyone? late submissions accepted!) Is that the dryer beeping already?

It's this sort of stream-of-consciousness list-making and list-checking that goes on in my head ALL THE TIME. It NEVER shuts off. That last paragraph doesn't detail even HALF the stuff that is whirling around in my brain these days. Extra choir practices, the annual meeting presentation coming up at the end of this month, and my god, when am I going to find time to do the AWC directory?? My aching jaw can attest to the fact that even in my sleep I'm clenching and worrying. If ozswede were around she'd be sending me concerned emails telling me to slow the hell down.

Notes to Self: send those emails about the "creative" thing we have to do for the regional and the reimbursement for the cake. Go walking with the nordic walking sticks so that you don't have to answer "no I haven't had time yet" the next time your mother-in-law asks.

I know that the world will not tilt slowly and whirl down the side of the hill if I drop my concentration for a few moments to ease the strain it is putting across my shoulders, but even my attempts to shed some responsibility and some extracurricular activities don't seem to be getting me very far. I even replied recently with what amounted to a very guilty and hard-to-write no-I'm-sorry-I-don't-think-I-can-will-you-ask-someone-else-first to one of my best friends in all the world who needs some help with a small project while she's traveling...to SEE ME (If you need me, I'll be over here under all this guilt).

The water in the fish tank needs to be changed, and I must remember to remind Anders to do something about the drain under the bathtub.

I have lots of exciting things going on too, it's not all chores by any means. studio_zoe is coming down next weekend to take photos of my kids, and I'm being interviewed by Sydsvenskan (the big newspaper for this end of the country) next week and work is going gangbusters.

And I am excrutiatingly aware that I have nothing to complain about considering what's going on in the wake of Katrina

My God, can you imagine what a mess I'd be if we had a DOG on top of all this?! Maybe everything, as my mom says, DOES happen for a reason.


*term cadged from cottontimer, via an entry a friend of hers wrote
**Please note that I am NOT complaining. I am merely making a statement about my state of mind.
 busy
mood: busy
music: the filter bubbling away in the fish tank


Comments

oh dear...dont forget to breathe in the middle of all those 'to-do's'

oooo you know...id LOVE to take pictures of your kids sometime too. next time im down there....

Oh YES, please!! that would be so cool! :)

I got a postcard today from ozswede. They've been busy sailing around the Baltic and now that that's been well and truly sailed on, they were heading down the coast around Kalmar, probably looking for fresh seas to conquer. But since it was signed by all including Bruce and Sheila, I assume all is well.

:) I'm glad to hear it. She hasn't even posted over on Coolabah recently, so I was starting to wonder!

I don't know how you do it :)

amphetamines :P

Are the kids keeping you young? I can't deal with half of the things that are on your agenda normally :o)

I miss Marie. Do you know when and if she will return to LJ?

She's still out sailing, I just heard that from idahoswede. Last time I had an email from her after asking if she was ever going to return to LJ, she was a bit short, sounding kinda stressed about it. I suspect she'll ease in gradually again at some point during the fall. At least I hope so!

I hope so too, Marie had a real special style to bring to LJ.


Time. The one substance we could all do with more of.

More hours in the day. Thats what we weekend bloggers need. *chuckle*

When I look back at all that I did when my kidlets were young I am boggled. How did I do it all? How do you do it all? You seem to know how to feel at least relatively satisfied with it. Thats good. Keep on keepin' on grrl.

Ack. I hope things will slow down soon. (Mine is pretty slow down as Stephen is napping :D ) Life just can't keep going going going with no rest in sight, can it?

I certainly hope not!

It's ok to complain a little, really (not that I'm saying that you do!), it doesn't diminish any consideration for other stuff happening in the world.

*curious*
what is the interview in Sydsvenskan about?

about moving to Sweden for lurrrrve :)

I sometimes think it's better to have a bit too much going on, I'm more productive in some weird way. I think you are the same.

Most of the time that is definitely the case, but I think this past month has really pushed me over the edge. :P

(Anonymous)
oh honey

You have an extremely full life and you happen to be someone who is always thinking about others and you also want to do everything with creativity and flair! It cannot be easy to sustain balance in all that. Yet, I know how much pleasure you get from juggling so many things and accomplishing so many things with such grace and efficiency-- you are remarkable. Really. I am always inspired by how you can keep engaged in so many projects and activities and do so well with them all. Please let go of guilt. That is just one weight you DON'T need to add to your shoulders. Truly-- drop the guilt off a bridge and let it wash out to sea. Sending you big BIG hugs and foot rubs. ~bluepoppy

Re: oh honey

Thanks BP! You are a sweetie to remind me to focus on the important things and not get hung up on the guilt. :)

I got dizzy and sick just reading what's going on in your head and life, whoa. I started trying to come up with just and idea for a poem yesterday and then got totally side tracked. If you'll be able to take it, I'll give it another go tonight when I get home.

Hurry! Hurry! :)

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