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I FEEL LUCKY
I must have done something extraordinary in a past life or else someone up there really likes me. I've thought about it for a long time and I know deep down in my heart that it must be true. I'm living a charmed life. Although...I'm only approximately halfway through it, so maybe the shit is about to hit the fan.

Nothing REALLY BAD has ever happened to me. I've lost loved ones, but not unexpectedly (except my 4-legged loved ones). I've never broken a bone. It's not the kind of luck that allows me to find bills of large denominations on the street or four-leaf clovers like my sister, but it's a steady sort of knowledge that I'm going to get through my life just fine. I'm not saying that nothing bad has never happened...just nothing REALLY BAD. I know the difference. And I know that it's early in the game.

It doesn't make me want to take up eXtreme sportz or go to police school. It just means that every now and then I stop and think "what a nice life I have." If I DID do something to deserve it, I don't know what it could be since I can't remember much before 3rd grade, much less any prior life flashbacks.

My family wasn't dysfunctional, at least not much, and when it was, it was fairly mild. My children are healthy. I have good friends and a husband who loves me. I've seen all 3 episodes of The Lord of the Rings. I have a good job that allows me to help make payments on a huge beautiful new house and still have money left over for sushi at least once a month. There are a lot of good things going on. Although my daughter STILL won't sleep through the night....

Most people (at least the Americans in my circle) do this sort of thing at Thanksgiving. I do it at the end of the year. I don't really believe in New Year's Resolutions because they put way too much pressure on you, but I do think it's nice to sort of have some goals in mind for the next 365 days. So, I've got my goals all set, and hopefully my tendency to laziness and complacency won't get in my way.
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mood: contemplative
music: Raw Youth—Tame Yourself


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I remember thinking these same type of thoughts over a year ago. Then my dad went cuckoo and told us he was going on a business trip to North Carolina when he was really leaving us. In a way, it sort of relieved me because I knew something shitty had to happen to me eventually. It was nice to get it over with.

eek! how awful :( I didn't mean to bring up bad memories. I've had shitty things happen too, but nothing that I couldn't get through. I like your attitude, though: It was nice to get it over with. I hope I can be like that if/when my really shitty thing happens.

On the other hand, sometimes shitty things don't happen to people and they get on with their lives and all is well with the world. Hard to believe, I know, but it does happen.

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